Honesty...

They love to be in the sling and it's a silver bullet to put them to sleep.

Our current sleeping arrangement

It's hard to tell, but there are two small heads behind that book. I am nursing and reading them nursery rhymes. Couldn't do it without my special (huge) nursing pillow.

Here we are allowing the boys tummy time and airing out their bums. It helps cure their diaper rash.

Mothering two infants is, without a doubt, the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It's a job that never ends - day or night -and just when I think I've got it figured out and I'm in a groove, everything changes and mayhem ensues. For some reason, I expected it (taking care of two) to be easy...or easier than it is. But, let me tell ya folks - it ain't easy. Some days are smooth sailing and others absolutely kick my butt. (Just when I get Smith to settle down and sleep, Mason wakes up, cries, and wakes Smith up. ) I crave the consistency and predictability of a daily routine, but each day with these two guys is different. Some days they sleep for hours, some days they just won't sleep. Some days they are content to sit in their swing and some days they want to be held all the time. I'm told that things start getting easier and more predictable when babies turn 3 months old...here's hopin'.

As hard as it is, I love these little guys very much. I can see that Jesus uses children as a lesson in self-sacrifice. I've uttered many tearful prayers at 2 in the morning and the Lord is always gracious when He reminds me that what I need more than anything, more than sleep or free time or consistency or a live-in nanny :), is Him. So, when you pray for me, pray that I would have courage - not fear, pray that I would have strength - not tears, pray that I would have joy - not bitterness.

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thess 5:16-18